
Or thereabouts … which means in about 5 months we will have another adorable little being in our home.
I am starting to get very excited about meeting this new angel to arrive soon, not to say I havent been excited... I guess I have been preoccuppied during this pregnancy with toddler taming (or not taming) and the "pre-teens" of my near 8 year old and generally trying to be my best self as a wife and mother... most of the time failing miserably LOL!!
With both Mikaela and Joshua I was really able to enjoy both pregnancies as though they were both my first, well with Mikaela because obviously she was my first. With Joshua it felt like my first all over again because Mikaela was 6 years old, and we were well past the newborn, baby and toddler years... it was all new and exciting all over again.
So with baby #3 on the horizon I got to thinking a whole gammat of thoughts and emotions: some of my usual fearful thoughts - "will the baby be healthy"; "I hope labour goes well" and a new one "what will my life LOOK like in a year's time" ... some occassionally selfish thoughts - "when will I ever have Me/Scrap/Art time?" ... some rational and realistic thoughts - "how will I keep my house clean and organised"... some sad, pre-grieving thoughts for the changes to occur - "Joshua not getting me all to himself (nor me he)"; "Mikaela having more reason to have her (very occassional) meltdown and cry "I just miss you Mum" which will make our Mummy/Daughter time more scarse and precious; "when will Nath and I ever get any couple time"...
All these thoughts... plus guilty thoughts for those I love that long to have a bubba of their own, and for many reasons are not able to (just yet)...
Yet all of these thoughts and emotions do not detract from the fact that I am SO totally excited about meeting this new little baby bundle of joy.
During meditation on Saturday it stuck me that I have in my womb a child who already has their very own unique blue print of who they are, how they think... very soon a whole new little being will enter our family, a little being with his or her very special and unique personality, likes and dislikes, giggle, chatter...
Not to mention the very adorable and gorgeousness that ONLY a newborn baby is --> which goes so quickly --> and another fact I was "pre-greiveing" for a bit - I mean I just cant believe that Joshua is already 16 months old, it feels like yesterday (and forever) since he joined our family.
I know it will be like that for "blossoming baby" too - once he or she arrives, we will feel as though they've always been with us. And of course, it will go so quickly too.
We've started to get ourselves organised for the arrival, we need to get ourselves a double pram, another car seat, etc etc... we've also started to buy a couple of outfits (just for baby, not ALL hand me downs)... including this little number, which is one of my favourites:
I am also VERY excited that I will be delivering at the Birthing Centre again. This is where I gave birth to Mikaela, some 8 years ago: 3 hours, no drugs, no issues what-so-ever... and I know that delivering there again does not guareentee the same experience... but I feel mroe comfortable, relaxed and confident... and those are the most important factors. I'll also have a doula, which I am so excited about and really looking forward to.
Another big factor is that I am healther than I was with Joshua, I went on a diet and was 9 kilos lighter when I fell pregnant this time, than I was with Joshua... I'll continue my walking; be doing pre-natal yoga; Nath bought me a bike for chrissy (I'll collect today) and chasing Joshua about certainly keeps me on my toes too...
As with many changes in our lives... we can at times be fearful of the unknown... then when it arrives we realise we had no reason to be fearful at all... everything is just as it is supposed to be.
I figure it's five tough years (and the rest LOL)... and Nath and I are even considering another, baby #4 will be our finale to our family (God willing)...
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Also today is the birthday of two very gorgeous friends of mine:
Jodie who has been beside me through thick and thin... who makes me laugh and cry... who is a gorgeous, real, true, unjudging, compassionate woman who I am proud to have as a lifer friend (oh and is SINGLE can you believe it!!!! If you have any gorgeous single men, in Canberra!!, you want to send on a blind date, email me :) teeehehhheee {she will kill me for that, but hey Mr Right is out there somewhere!!!}... I'm otta here to have brunch with her this morning YUMMO!:

And Di, who is about as sweet and caring a friend you can find... it is also her 18 year wedding anniversary today too... Congratulations Dave and Di.
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Another issue all together - Barack Obama's speech this morning made me cry very very good tears of joy... the joy that change can bring... ahhhh. Hope and Faith - two very beautiful and important factors of life!
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Until next time, love and peace out..
Bxo