... just sometimes I can get so impassioned about my art, that I struggle with the day-to-day.
Latest page from my art journal {She needs more work}. Photo taken with iMac PhotoBooth so excuse the quality!
Recently I was so lucky to have two days of art play, one with a group of women and again the very next day with my dear friend Kim. TWO whole days to play and paint and get messy and have fun. TWO days back-to-back...
Turned out not to be such a great thing, for me... or for my Kim.
The "come down" after such a wonderful time playing and creating was a little crushing for us both. It was a combination for me actually, the art and just having some time with my true soul friend.
I spent the entire next day searching on the net for more jobs I could be doing as an artist... like becoming an Art Therapist. Incidentally, I have a professional Art Therapist in my latest Mixed Media... and chatting with her about the realities of that job, mmm not-so-much for me. There are lots of other avenues tho, that I think about and consider how to get there... how to map out my future.
Then my husband gently (and gratefully) reminds me to just be in the NOW... to enjoy every precious moment with Mikaela and the boys for as long as I can. He asked me to stop trying to figure out what I'll be doing in 5 years and just be happy with today. (Asides I think it's kinda easy knowing I always have Technical Writing to fall back on - boooor - ing! *grin*).
Deep sigh. Most days I am good with living in the now... but sometimes, this art stuff, this creative life... it really gets under my skin.
I imagine myself under the silver glow of a Tuscan moon... still up and still creating art from an already full day of paint and crayons...
That's a long way off... I imagine my hair will be much greyer than it is today. That it will be much more than five years away. Maybe in my retirement I will enjoy such pleasures. Nath and I will have much fun in our Tuscan villa.
For now my pleasures are entirely different... and they are abundant and I am very lucky. I had a little, near three year old, get into my stamp pads today... he stamped all over himself, all over the floor in the dining and the kitchen... and just a little on his brother's hands and face. He asked me "please don't tell my Daddy I did this" as we cleaned up and got him changed. After my initial horror, I rang Nath to tell him about it... the most hilarious part >>> I was RIGHT THERE, just with my back turned to them both. Painting in my art journal and day dreaming about how good life is. I could see them out of the corner of my eye... they sure sounded like they were having fun. shake of the head. It is really tough some days trying to combine mothering and a creative life. This was all done after Joshua had already done some painting with me... ah kids hey! They drive you nuts but they give you the most magical moments you could EVER have imagined.
Who knows what I'll be doing in five years... if someone had of told me five years ago (or just a little more than five years ago, lets say 5.5 years ago) that this is how my life would be... I'm not sure I would have believed them.
I try to live life in the moment.
To be in the NOW as much as I can.
I'm going to give it another go today.
Love out.
Bxo
