Yesterday:
Hey Baby...
I wonder when you will come... in the middle of the night? In the day?
I wonder if you are a boy or a girl?
I wonder so many things...
Recently I'd been going to bed thinking "tonight might be the night"... but not so much these past few nights... I realise you will come when you are ready.
Each morning I wake and I am grateful for another full and deep sleep .... *smile*
I know too well that soon we are in for very big changes, mind you... I can not really "see" those changes into what they will mean as an "actuality" for our family of 4 about to become 5...
I feel as though my body is in full preparation and near readiness: I have back ache, cramps... lots of braxton hicks & tenderness... but I am aware that this could remain for days or even a couple of weeks before you decide it is time to join us.
Thankfully I am feeling relaxed and patient, nothing like I was with Joshua... I am happy to go 2 weeks over our due date, which will take us to 16th July, so some time off yet. I can't imagine I'd be a "joy" to be around... but I will wait for you to come when you are ready.
Lucky for me your Dad is super supportive, I think his love for me and you far out weighs any moods I can have... tho I think my moods are pretty good :) of course! Naturally anyone who has been through pregnancy is far more compassionate and considerate because they just "get" it and it is not easy to "explain" the series of emotions from joy to complete exhaustion a heavily pregnant woman goes through in a matter of minutes. Lucky for me I have lots of super supportive girlfriends who are here for me so lovingly, particularly Kim, Martha and Vanessa have been wonderful. It does help that most of the time I am one of those "glowing" pregnant women and the pregnancy itself I adore, I love feeling you move inside me, I love the anticipation... I am lucky to not suffer many ill side effects as I know can be horrible for some...
Also helps that your Dad is so great, I think he is just beside himself with joy to becoming a Dad again. Sometimes when we are in the bath... and your Dad sits in (the bathroom, not the bath... there is no room LOL) to chat with us... I see him gazing at you {my big belly}... he has this grin and stare and it makes me feel like we are living a dream. We know we are very blessed to have found each other and created this gorgeous family we have... with all the ups and downs. Life is beautiful.
Soon enough you will be here and we will be gazing adoringly at you with love, awe and fascination.
Love out
Bxo
