… has spent the past 5 nights & 6 days in hospital with Bronchiolitis (thankfully Respiratory Syncytial Virus (RSV) negative).
Thursday night after Ben was born (3 days old) he had a bad
night sleeping and difficulty breathing... his nose was blocked and we were
really worried.
Our midwife came to see us and got us to go back to the
hospital to have Ben examined by the Paediatricians; they wanted to admit us
for a night of observation.
He was placed on Oxygen and initially we were told he had a
viral infection & established it was Bronchiolitis. Ben was likely infected by me :( ... you can just imagine the guilt I felt!! Unfortunately the flu I had been fighting off in the last few days before labour, grew in full force once he arrived. Thursday I got some antibiotics, but by then I had already passed the yukky's onto Ben :(.
We played the waiting game patiently until he was well
enough to come home again TODAY!! I was able to stay right beside him the entire time in a little fold out bed that they have at hospitals, not very comfy... but at least I was there at all times.
Although this has been my most heartbreaking experience as a
mother to date {Rob Thomas’s “this is how a heart breaks” kept running in my
mind}… there were many positives also: Ben never got a temperature; he kept
feeding really well (in fact had gained 300grms in his first 4 days and another 120grms during our hospital stay); his
colour was always good and he rested well.
It was awful to have his nasal passages suctioned… he has a
GREAT set of lungs!! Thankfully! His Oxygen levels went up and down over the
few days, from .6 of a litre to nil, and back up to .3… two steps forward and
one back each day it seemed.
Thankfully Nath’s Mum arrived from Adelaide the morning
after we were admitted… she has been taking great care of Joshua, which has
been wonderful.
Mikaela also went interstate the day after we were admitted…
up to Sydney to hang out and have some fun girly time with her Aunts for 4
nights… so that too was a blessing.
We had some fabulous nursing staff looking after us…
seriously these women are gentle angels on earth.
I kept a journal while we were in the hospital… I’ll likely
make a mini album, just a little healing book. Of course too, when Ben is older
he will be told he was in hospital as a newborn… he’ll want to know the
details, so it will be a good keepsake.
I count my blessings… we share a 4bed room and the
other 3, though much older, all have asthma… it is heartbreaking to hear them
coughing and struggling, particularly in the night. The Mum's were lovely and we had quite a little "family" happening by the time we left. I am sure to be in touch with both Belinda and Amanda
Nathan has been my rock, by my side and back and forth all
day long… trying to spend quality time with Joshua and with Ben and I… he did
as he always does in a bad situation… impeccably!
Joshua did really well too and the adjustment of a family of
4 to 5 has been even tougher than we imagined with this unexpected turn of
events… but Joshua has done great… I missed him very much. At times I feel a
distance between us, then I take him on a bit of one-on-one time, even just a
“date” to the cafeteria… and all is gold again. He is the cutest boy!
Mikaela has been away for the most part, and having a ball
in Sydney… it lifted my spirits to talk to her and hear her excitement in all
her adventures with her Aunts. She comes home tonight.
We got a gorgeous gift pack from Auntie Cassie, including the cutest little snuggle blanket which I wrapped Ben in often (and some charms for my Pandora bracelet, thank you sweetness SIL :))...
Yesterday Nath came in with a postage package for me…
containing the MOST beautiful quilt for Benjamin made my dear friend Tanya
(thanks gorgeous)… it really lifted my spirits… and has been keeping Ben warm
and comfy...
This is how Benjamin
looked this morning, they’d taken off the nasal prongs (JOY, JOY, JOY) and he did so well on his own they let us come home... YAH !!!!
I am SUPER grateful to those who sent love and prayers and
best wishes… touched by the phone calls and SMS’s … thank you.
Delighted to be home with my family, all of us tonight :)
Love out
Bx