Firstly... I went to water running this morning, for the first time in many weeks. It was great.
I also got to see Eddy, who did the Melbourne Marathon recently, her first !!! Lots of congratulations and HUGE proud hugs from me to her. Well done Eddy!
Image from here.
Secondly, this weekend marks half way through the 12WBT.
I am very concious that this is where I need to really watch myself... to keep myself 100% focused and commited to my goals and to the nutrition plan.
And yet, even with this knowledge, this past weekend I ate WAY too many calories. Infact both days I would have got an excess of calorie intake. No deficit at all.
Suffice to say I feel awful about it now, but I am trying to remain positive, and I have a few things to keep me on course:
>> this is the FIRST time I have strayed from my nutrition plan this round. The half way mark almost exactly! The first time I have had no deficit.
>> previous rounds it would be fair to say most weekends were a struggle for me and from half way on many days I would not follow the program... I would have no deficit days regularly, so I am determined not to let that happen again. And I feel I've done the best round so far in these terms. This round I have been really good with sticking to the program.
>> weekends remain a struggle for me, but if I stick with the high load of exercise I am usually good, I find that when I exercise well... I eat well.
>> I know what triggered me and I know how to avoid those triggers in future... ie. a BIG bag of licorice and that nasty little "reward/deserve" beast!!! That little bugger always rears his ugly head when I am close to goal... feeling good and fitting back into THOSE jeans. Dear me, I know about him, and still he creeps in. No more!
>> I have done SO damn well this round so far, so I know I can smash the next 6 weeks just as well as the last 6 weeks. I am setting up a new mindset, a new way of living, for good.
So today, I am back to kicking butt with my nutrition plan... I am focused on the next 6 weeks of clean eating... and for always!
And remembering to be kind to myself too, not to let a {small in the scheme of things} slip up be the undoing of me. I am going to be gentle, drink lots of water and herbal teas... say nurturing things to myself. The self loathing and beating up will not continue! This new, best version of me, is committed to a clean diet for life, not just 12 weeks & one weekend is not going to make me give up this lifestyle. Keep it in perspective!
Image is from an ebook by Julie Parker and Emma Kate Codrington - check them out, you'll love them!
Often a "I need things to be PERFECT"... or I must stick with the program "120% always" are just excuses, so if - okay, realistically when you fail these unrealistic expectations you place on yourself... you already have a built in excuse (and it feels justified, because that's how you've conditioned yourself)... to go totally off the rails and abandon your objectives entirely.
Not this time sucker! I am so close to my goals, and I've been here before... only this time I am going to be more focused and determined.
This time I am going to make it happen. I am going to reach my goals.
Absolutely!
I hope you did well with your weekend, and if not... join me in a fresh new start and to smashing our goals for the next 6 weeks.
Bxo
